Actually come to think of it, i dont actually miss 4F. Why, I dont know.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY YISHANNNNNNNNNNNNNN

Haha it's abit late thou, but nevermind lah. :P

So yesterday was shan's birthday/staff day celebration. Arrived in school usual time, hang out with the badmtn people, then we gave shan her present - a pair of slippers from the team! Hope she likes it (: After morning assembly, ACES DAY WORKOUT -.-, which according t TJ tradition, is MASS DANCE. Didnt join in, forgot all the steps already, & so squeezy somemore. But i do see someone dancing alone happily~~~

Right after was concert in the audi. Was alright i think, especially the teacher's performance. The 2 of them who mimicked the cartoon was damn cute! Haha MissDian was there too.
New mass dance put up by the SC was okay too, the girl who partnered AHEMAHEM was damn poor thing! :P

Gave the presents to the teachers, then headed back to AHS! WHOO! The feeling to be back there was indescribable. The old memories, teachers, friends who went back.. it just felt nice being there, a place I was so familiar with. Didnt get to see the teachers though, heard they had to go off somewhere. SO. slacked around, then i randomly said, "I feel lik spending money today", & Ether said KBOX! HAHA such a sudden thought, & off we go, & reached suntec at around 12plus 1. Walked around window shopping, then started singing & singing & singing! Haven been there for sooooo long! I left at around 530, while shan & ether continued till 7. Siao. I was damn tired la, so went off first. Msged bf along the way, sad that didnt get to spend much time with him ytd, but he had t go back to his sec sch too & even had dinner at pizza hut. Hahah hope he enjoyed himself.

As for me, I reached home around 7, lazed around, went to sleep at roughly 820. Planned t wake up an hr later t study, BUT when i woke up it's already 1130. WTH LA i heck care go back sleep..UNTIL 1030 THIS MORNING. COOL NOT! Hahah pigggggggggg. Went out at arnd 1 plus t meet bf, then studyyyyyyyyyyyy. OHMAN PROMOS ARE COMING BUT IM SO NOT IN THE MOOD TO STUDY! How. I dont wanna fail promos. )':

Haiz. Come on people, let's study. But the sad thing is, even after promos end, there's still PW. Sucks lah.

PS. pictures soon! :D

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLAUDIA!
haha my econs classmate (:

i need t learn t love my class.

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Smth happened just now on my way back home, which made me think quite alot.
We(my mom, sis & me) were just randomly chit-chatting & we somehow came t the topic about genes & hereditary stuff. Then my mom mentioned that health is very impt & blahblahblah & that she went for a check up recently. The report is not out yet, but here's what she told us (sis & me). "(translated) You all must learn t treasure your mother, otherwise if smth just suddenly happen t me then i will be gone." Just that few simple words, it impacted me greatly. For the rest of the 15-min journey home, i kept quiet & i almost cried. These few words kept coming into my mind. It was then that i really realised that my family members are the most important people t me. I dont want t only regret when smth bad really happens.
So, to people out there, pls treasure your family.

Qin signed off @3:52 PM

LOL i know i should be studying! But then. Aiyah no mood. Wanted to complete tut 27, but realised i lost my integration notes, so forget it man. Tmrw go sch do.
Anyway, woke up, slacked around abit, and talked on the phone.
Many things that happened over the past few months just kept replaying in my mind. I thought it would be nice if we could turn back time & go back t the past. There are too many beautiful memories that i wont wanna forget. Just too many too many.
Sometimes i thought, a few months time is already a long period of time, but looking back, maybe i should have stood firmer on my stand & not agreed. I dunno if i've made the right choice, well some of the times it seemed yes, sometimes no. Let's see, if i haven agreed at that time, even up till now, would you behave differently? Or would you have alr given up?

I was once asked t rank my priorities. I didnt answer at that time, but maybe i should just say it now. FAMILY, BOYF, STUDIES, BADMINTON. see? i dun lik when you criticise my sister yea? how does it feel if i just say your siblings are lik shit, espcially when they are the most impt ppl in ur life? Just think it over. They are many things that i dont lik, just tt i dont say, wait for u t discover then. (:



TADAA MY SISTER! I LOVE HER OKAY. :D

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Yo guys, sorry for dao-ing & emo-ing yesterday! Just a bad day for me. ): But nvm, i still love you all! <3

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I've been trying to be the perfect person you wanted me to be, I'm trying my best, putting in effort everytime, and I seriously do hope that you've seen all that I've done. I'm sorry i am still not up to your standards, but I'm willing to try, to please you. I know you do put in effort too, & I'm not complaining that it's not enough. In fact, it's alot that I feel bad not giving you back what you deserved. So dont discredit yourself.

BUT. I believe that some of the issues you were in the wrong, and that's not what you think. Take today's incident for example. It's not about not telling me, the more important thing is the reason why you suddenly backed out. Bus too full? I dont see the fucking link here, because this has got nothing to do with you not coming along. Are you finding it troublesome having t squeeze your way through? If not, then? Yes, it's very disappointing & hurting to see what you've done, & all you could say was sorry. Why must a good intent turn bad? Isnt it because of your sudden backed-out that surprised me? I would have been happier if you didnt mention it, or didnt even have the intention in the first place. But then again, it's not the most important issue. Why? Why did you do that? I still dont understand.

It's no point drowning yourself in self-pity, expecting people to sympathise with you. You cant take it anymore, then what about me? Have you even thought about how i felt? When all these things happen, & I cant do anything to salvage the situation?
You are truly not the one i expected, but I know we can both come t a compromise where it's a win-win situation. I dont mind getting angry at times, but not everytime please. I've got enough. BUT. without you, i wont be alright at all. I need you.

I'm sorry if I've hurted you with my words, just like how you've hurt me with whatever intentions that gone wrong had. Self pity? No, it's not gonna work anymore, for both you and me. You kept disturbing me the whole day today, it's alright, i tried t swallow whatever shit you gave me. But not this type, alright? I've given my all, the rest is up to you. I'm willing to learn & change, & i hope that you do see your own problems & change too.

I've always loved stories with happy ending. Do you?

Labels: emo.

Qin signed off @10:53 PM

OHMAN i feel so screwed, so many things not done!
Gotta chiong WR, chem mock spa which I completely forgotten until today, and physics spa which is on tues. HOW?

I've been getting headaches easily nowadays, and it's seriously affecting me. Dunno wad's happening t me, sometimes it's so severe that i just wished i could have my head chopped off. ): Somebody save me ):

But in whatever case, i still love my class & my team!
07/08 & TJBT all the way! (:

Qin signed off @7:23 PM

I finally watched THE MUMMY today, so lagged! Okay nvm, better than nothing (:
So yupp went to watch it after my dental appointment, which is after my physics mock spa which i think is alright. Hope i dont screw up. (:
Anyway, the movie is nice, so funny the characters in ancient China know so many languages. Took bus home, BUT before that, i left my wallet in the cinema!
OMG luh i was freaking scared, until Naresh went back with me, to find it. Thought i lost it man, had so many precious stuff inside! :D

Hmm gotta study already, Physics test coming, which i think i will fail. So i dont really give a damn, but for the sake of not wanting t get ZERO i will study (:

hey im sorry if i neglected you just now okay, i was really having a bad stomachache, & you didnt bother t come t ask how i was. & i wasnt really upset over the wallet thing alright, im not emo! Just not feeling well. ): Haiz. ily.

Qin signed off @11:06 PM

RIGHT. I got tagged by Sihui my love. (:
Rules:
A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
B) Tag eight people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. What are your reasons for having a LJ?
eh? blogger lei. =.=

2. What do you do before bedtime?
Eat while reading magazines/books!PSP/blogging/chatting on msn/watch tv.
BUTTT. Most of the time I will fall asleep with my contact lens on cause im too tired :P

3. What will your dream wedding be like?
HMMM. It would be perfect if it's held at the beach (: Romantic :D

4. What is the city of your dreams and why?
Maybe Paris? Dunno lei, i will discover as i grow up i suppose (:

5. Are you an introvert or extrovert?
Introvert to strangers. But i would be very open to people im close with.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Both, giving & receiving is different, but both are equally nice (:

7. Do you trust easily?
NO.

8. What person, dead or alive, is your role model?
My dad i suppose. Teach me many many things ^^

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
not really, im learning not to get angry/unhappy easily. :D

10. When's the last time you had fun?
Friday! SAC,JTS. (: acty everyday would be fun if the company is right.

11. Is being tagged fun?
haha not bad luh. depends on the qns.

12. How do you see yourself?
i need more courage & self confidence. & to control my temper.

13. Who are currently the most important people to you?
my family & teammates. Not forgetting MY LOVE, WIFE, BAOBEI & BF (:

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
SIHUI! ahhh my love. HAHA a very nice person. really very very nice. abit siao one!

15. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
married but poor. Loving is blessing :D BUT can i be married & rich?

16. How many children do you want to have, if any?
2 or 3

17.What's better, to give or to receive?
to give! It feels very good to see the smiles on ppl's face when they receive what you gave.

18. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
HAHAH pick none then. But i dont think that would happen; haha.

19. What would you do if you (or your girlfriend) became pregnant unexpectedly?
OMG. hahah cry. then tell parents bah.

20. What are you waiting for right now?
LUNCH with mom & sister.

tagged: baohui, yishan, rena, xiaoran, swee!

Qin signed off @1:41 PM

PICTURES! enjoy! :D 080808.


Naresh is scary. :P

me & shan at SAC.


JTS. :D



Girls' team 2008 <3

coach's son (:

ULTIMATE CHAMPION. haha.

more pictures soon :D

Qin signed off @1:19 AM

TADAA! yupp new blogskin. Congrats to me for having the time & patience to do it (:

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY! belated.

didnt do much on national day, it was just a weekend t me anyway, nth special. Spend the day with Naresh, as expected. (:
On the other hand, the day before was spent much more fruitfully, had alot of fun.

Friday morn - national day celeb in school. Anyway i think the march past was a screw-up. Zhengxian was so funny lah. Then concert in the hall, nothing special, only the part where we sang the National Day songs was nice (: 07/08 was so enthu, we were singing together, & i had one hand over yuxuan (my laopo!)'s shoulder, and the other over naresh's. It felt good t spend time like this with the class ((:

Noon - Sportsmen Appreciation Ceremony. Mainly exco handover and the video&photo screening of all the pdps lah. Badminton one was alright :D But the thing is out of all the pictures that we submitted, about 90% were the girls' photos & the guys only had lik 2. Haha so malu, keep seeing our faces :P aiya they were nice anyway.

Night - JTS! have been looking toward to this. Had dinner at ThaiPan. The food there was damn good, esp. the tofu! Rocks man. My table was damn funny, keep playing pranks on people! We mixed orange juice & some other thing into the butter squid, and asked naresh t give t the senior guys. In the end Bay Songhon & Limeng got tricked! Damn funny.
After that, celebrated the August babies' birthdays, then gave the presents to the seniors. Hope they liked it (: &&&&&> surprisingly, they gave up presents too! So nice of them :D
THEN.
headed to Katong Village for pool! Okay im super not interested, so i just watched them play. the girls r super noob lah, & the guys are not bad, excepr guorong! :P hah sry :P lol but then i fell asleep while waiting for them t end the game & go home. Finally, cabbed home with junrong guorong & yirong. all the RONGS man. omg.

hmmm. okok. time to sit down & study already. Physics test coming up, & chiong for promos! ((:
cya!

OH. & I wont get to see Naresh for the whole day today. How great is that ): imy (:

Qin signed off @12:23 AM

National Day is coming! Haha so excited, cause got long weekend! Lol got time to chiong studies already.

2 tests tmrw, chem & math, and i haven finish studying yet. i think i'll just hope for a pass. (:
Training today. Horrendous. Well okay, not really, but wasnt very good. PT first, we followed the guys. TIRING. i think next time girls should do on their own. But it's good trng thou.
Drills were alright, until the sparring part when i got abit frustrated. Dunno why also. Hope it doesnt affect other ppl, esp. yishan (:

Right, i should go study now. Oh and i might change blogskin soon, if i have the time and patience to change everything.

I wanna go NDP~ But it's impossible. Hahah.

Qin signed off @12:30 AM

hmmm. i tried my best. but if it still doesnt work, i dunno wad t do. maybe i have to try harder. it's not easy to change, and stop putting all the blame on me. seriously, im feeling very helpless now, like i dunno what i can do t prevent all these from happening. it might all be my own problem, but if youre not going t help me, i cant solve this by myself. maybe next time i can, but now, NO. and by leaving me alone and throwing me away, it doesnt help at all. you should know.

Qin signed off @3:04 PM

school after e learning week has started, and now we have more homework and more tests coming up. we've been told to join CHEERS, but it's held in the sept hols, so i hope i dont screw up my promos if not mrs goh will slaughter me. haven been playing well in training either, i guess both ys and i were off form. not a good excuse thou, maybe we were just lousy.

i need t buck on my studies, badminton, everything esp my confidence and courage. i realised these are the things that acty bring me down and make me so weak. no confidence, no courage to even fight back, it makes ppl want t come up t me even more cause they know they will win. im changing, but for the time being i really cant do anything to fight back. courage, i need it to protect myself, so that i wont die under somebody's hands one day. only courage and confidence can cover my feeling of insecurity, my fear of losing everything. SOMEONE HELP ME PLEASE?

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