Have been sick recently. Flu, cough, fever.. whatever la, just serious enough to skip training. I didn't wanna skip it on purpose k, I was really feeling unwell. Don't wanna go there and can't train properly. & I hate my nose! Argh sucks la I can't smell anything, can't taste the food I'm eating. ): Must wait till a few mouths before I can taste it. =.=

One more month of hols. Always wanted to start studying, but always ended up doing smth else. Shucks, I'm srsly in no mood t study. & I miss all my friends! &&&&. YAYNESS CAUSE SIHUI IS BACK FROM JAPAN! WHEEEEEE!

Anyway, do stomach cramps come more often when you're sick? My stomach has been hurting ocassionally ever since I got sick, and it's irritating cause I can't even eat properly. & I've been getting more ulcers recently. Especially when someone banged into me when I was drinking water from a bottle. Imagine the impact when the bottle edge bang into your lips. ARGH.

OH & baobei we should go out sometime soon! There's so much I wanna tell you!

Labels: sick.

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A few quotes for everybody. Have been depressed recently, but yes I'm alright now, have sorted my thoughts out.


1. It's better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all.
-Samuel Butler
2. Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.
-Kahlil Gibran
3. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a teardrop.
-Anonymous
4. There's this place in me where your fingerprints still rest, your kisses still linger, and your whispers softly echo. It's the place where a part of you will forever be a part of me.
-Gtretchen kemp

Qin signed off @10:45 PM

Alright, emo things aside. Mom got me an iPod nano & my sis an iTouch. So not fair, i got the cheaper one! But better than nothing. And I just got back from dental. Freaking pain. The dentist hurt me but didnt apologise, so I just stomped out of the clinic immediately after the appointment is over. -.-

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Things are not going our way, but it's really inevitable, we cannot do anything. Blame ourselves for being kids, we don't get to choose, do we?
I don't want to look so weak in front of you, I don't want you to know that I break down easily, so I controlled, I srsly tried. I tried to distant myself away from you, I want you to think I'm strong enough to tackle this type of problem.
But it's only when I'm alone, sitting down & thinking of the good times, do I realise that i actually miss you so much so much. And by then, I couldn't hold back my tears anymore.

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This world is so FUCKED UP. srsly.
I think some people out there just want me to die. One day I will, and when I do, don't pretend to come over & be concerned. I'm none of your business. Save your crocodile tears. THANKS A MILLION.

And I say again ppl, PLEASE use your real name when you tag, unless I know the nickname you're using. THANKS AGAIN.

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Think this's the best for you, you've always wanted it this way, so good for you then. Studies have always been your priority, so I hope you really study hard & score well k. Don't worry about me in the team, I think I can survive. Just that without your motivation & stuff, things would be alot different. & if they intend to fuck me up, so be it.
Yes i stayed because of friendship. Not that I don't have passion for badmtn anymore, but firstly we have to look what potential do we have t go far? I'll just stay for the rest of the 2 yrs, & see what comes out of it.
I guess I really have to let you go now, not forcing you t do what you didnt want t do. But technically speaking, you weren't given any choice either. Seeing you really happy with the decision they made, I know you are really free now. Come to think of it, if I were me in the past, I would just throw tantrum & everything to make you stay. So now I think I've grown. I would have done the same if you resigned. All the best dear, I know you will do well in the future (:

On a happier note, we had birthday dinner for me & guorong just now at seoul garden. Our table was alright, Ether's table ate damn alot. PIG. & we stayed and chitchatted until 10+ when they chased us out. Dear sent me home, then sat down under my block t talk till my parents called me at 1245am & I immediately chionged home.

Good luck, you've got what you wanted, jiayou.
& as you all can see, i have to edit the post.

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And now, I'm SEVENTEEN.

Qin signed off @12:03 AM

I realised my posts are always so emo, so yeap picts t brighten up the mood! -.-
Pre-birthday dinner with mom, sis & friend (:


Esplanade!

My friend!
Sister
Mom! She rarely take pictures okay.
The place we went to - ICHIBAN BOSHI
Mine & sis's
Mom's
Friend's
Me & sis ((:
Women power :P
So yeap my friend brought us to this jap restaurant, not bad lar, nice ambience too :D

I guess I get affected very easily..

Qin signed off @10:30 PM

Mine.



Omg i feel like a dumb ass. how can i afford to lose such impt stuff?! ULTIMATE LOSER.
你是否试过默默为一个人掉泪的感觉？It's not nice, but too bad the other party doesn't know, so ohwells I'm a loser again.

Appearance doesn't matter, so just SHUT THE FUCK UP.

Qin signed off @10:11 PM

come to think of it, AHS is nothing compared to TJ.
- i'm sick of trying to fit in where i shouldnt be, or should i be glad that i've finally escaped out of it a year ago. no doubt the company was great, but since they are all in the same school & pdp now, it makes those school days not memorable at all. well, except for one. but then again, who is he to me now? RUBBISH.

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i miss you so much now.

Qin signed off @5:40 PM

awwww man i swear swee's my bestest friend ever! :D

Qin signed off @10:47 PM

I.. got nothing to say. Please don't ask me to say anything.

why..why must it always end up lik e this? I tried, went home myself today, but..the feeling just isn;t right. i dont want us to end up like my sis, like how he got tired of her becos she only cared for herself..i did care for you, at least i went back home myself. you didnt reply..i guessed u must've blogged. so i think i'm just some stupid kid to u who doesnt understand what your ultimate aims are..what you wanna achieve in the end. i have to learn to stand on my own..becos youre so ambitious, you have so many targets set for yourself.. i'm not complaining.. but i have to be independent.. so tt the unwated feeling doesnt always come to me. yes studies are impt..i wont give up. i get what you mean, i will do wad u wanna do with u.. you said you will always want me, but how long can the 'always' last? forever? i dunno.. but now to me, youre priceless, so dun say u have no value, & i want you. loves. <3

Qin signed off @9:27 PM

again.
it has happened again.
i hate this temper of mine, be it with him or anybody or in court. i dunno why i'm like that, is it because i'm out of control? or because my parents didnt teach me well? otherwise, what?
i cannot blame my parents i think, they have taught me well, it's whether i've learnt well or not, & apparently i didnt. & i think they loved me too much that's why they didnt force me to learn whatever i didnt want to but ought to. and now i'm in deep shit.

yesterday was the first time i stomped of a house, angrily of course, slamming doors & gates and whatnots. obviously not my house though, orells you think my parents will let me come home? lol. so i headed for the playground & sat there alone, i know you wont come. cried & thought things through. i guess youre right, i always let anger come into the way of this r/s.
i think i must have exhibit some behaviour that make you feel insecure or anything, i'm sry for that. youre the only one who will tell me off about my mistakes, my lousy character, so i guess i kinda learn some things?

the question you asked me yesterday, i hesitated. i dunno what answer to give you, because i really dont know what to answer. i never want to see you sad, but then again sometimes my temper got the better of me. but im glad that things turn out fine at the end of the day, yeap talking things through helps, & so i hope you will keep by it too.

you're my motivation.. my one and only.. dont go..

Qin signed off @2:25 PM

BACK FROM CHALET! wheeee it was damn fun, hhaha most people turned up, and bbq was nice nice (: i feel bad not cooking anything, i just kept eating! shiatz. &&&& the best brunch ever, THAIPAN! hahah honey chicken, baby kailan, tofu with mango & butter squid! SHUANG.
lol 0708 is fun. (:
oh and yeap new classmates next year, time to make new friends i guess :D

training training training.. no motivation anymore.

Qin signed off @9:23 PM

omg PW HAS FINALLY ENDED! like finally, after all the meetings and whatnots. no more pw from now! maybe till we get our results. ): today's op was alright, q&a damn screwed up. and what was super suay was that, i was caught by tong for short skirt, and yea you all know what happened from there. damn unlucky, shan't say anymore!

training today, was alright i think, except that i let my emotions got the better of me during one of the matches. i dunno why also, but i thought i was controlling it rather well since the last time mrs goh talked to me. i guess i need aggression to play well, and well of course, with agression comes temper/emotion problem. HAIZ. but got better after that, and yeap i won that match of course. PT was agility at first, was okay until junrong said everybody do 半蹲 leaning against the wall. he suggested 10 mins originally, and changed to 2 mins 5 sets when we protested like siao. &&& in the end he ownself said to change to 2 minds per set. HAHAH.

After that dear wanted good food and alot of food badly, so i said SEOUL GARDEN, and off we go! haha 50+ bucks, sorry! damn full. ice cream is the best! yam + peach&apricot + strawberry. & of course not forgetting terriyaki & garlic chicken! wah heaven man~

i will be having chalet these few days, will only be back by friday night! so, cya peeps! (:

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