I've been trying to be the perfect person you wanted me to be, I'm trying my best, putting in effort everytime, and I seriously do hope that you've seen all that I've done. I'm sorry i am still not up to your standards, but I'm willing to try, to please you. I know you do put in effort too, & I'm not complaining that it's not enough. In fact, it's alot that I feel bad not giving you back what you deserved. So dont discredit yourself.

BUT. I believe that some of the issues you were in the wrong, and that's not what you think. Take today's incident for example. It's not about not telling me, the more important thing is the reason why you suddenly backed out. Bus too full? I dont see the fucking link here, because this has got nothing to do with you not coming along. Are you finding it troublesome having t squeeze your way through? If not, then? Yes, it's very disappointing & hurting to see what you've done, & all you could say was sorry. Why must a good intent turn bad? Isnt it because of your sudden backed-out that surprised me? I would have been happier if you didnt mention it, or didnt even have the intention in the first place. But then again, it's not the most important issue. Why? Why did you do that? I still dont understand.

It's no point drowning yourself in self-pity, expecting people to sympathise with you. You cant take it anymore, then what about me? Have you even thought about how i felt? When all these things happen, & I cant do anything to salvage the situation?
You are truly not the one i expected, but I know we can both come t a compromise where it's a win-win situation. I dont mind getting angry at times, but not everytime please. I've got enough. BUT. without you, i wont be alright at all. I need you.

I'm sorry if I've hurted you with my words, just like how you've hurt me with whatever intentions that gone wrong had. Self pity? No, it's not gonna work anymore, for both you and me. You kept disturbing me the whole day today, it's alright, i tried t swallow whatever shit you gave me. But not this type, alright? I've given my all, the rest is up to you. I'm willing to learn & change, & i hope that you do see your own problems & change too.

I've always loved stories with happy ending. Do you?

Labels: emo.

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