life is a torture to me. everyone around me doesn't know how i truly feel, except for one or two i guess. i really feel like dying now, but no, im not showing it, im gonna appear strong to everyone else.
to you, if you know who you are & i dont think you dont, i hate you. you dont deserve my respect, and i think many of the others too. you do things that make people hate you to the max, but nope i wont show you. i detest the things that you do, i detest you, and your character. i dont respect you, and in fact you dont deserve ANY of my respect.

anyway, thanks swee for just now, really talked alot, and i felt really comfortable. only she knows how i feel about things, i feel relieved saying everything out. yes indeed, good friends are hard to find, especially those you can confide in, and will keep your secrets. thank you baobei.

i dont know how long more i can hang on for.
i tried my best. and i really wished you can figure out how i feel, if you know me well enough.

Qin signed off @9:36 PM