today.. shan't comment much. just that i made a terrible mistake somewhere.
met bf at 3, went t his house, and turned out that he had to teach some girl maths. so yea the girl came, he tutored her while i do my work. after which we went to had chicken rice and he sent me home.

seems like bf gets the wrong info.. didnt mean that way. i just need time to think, to really sit down and think. getting confused over many things, and i dunno why. the past, the present.. why am i even putting them together? i think im being unfair to him. today's attitude really sucked, im really sorry, alot of things were going on in my mind. i knew it was the same for you too, just that you didnt wanna let me know. but yes, you finally told me, and i aint surprised you get that info from me. judging from the way i treat you. today was terrible. )':

"you know what is worse than rejecting? it's accepting and then dumping me." ah. i didnt know what to say after you told me that. no i'm not doing that, cause i have think through things i believe. i was happy i get to talk to him this afternoon, i mean he's just a good friend whom i haven talked to for a long time. but silly me have funny thoughts going on in my mind, thoughts that made me crazy, thoughts that made me lose my sense, thoughts that doesnt even make sense in the first place. you must have known what the thoughts were, i know you could sense, that's why you got the wrong info. i admit, the chat this aftnn kinda reignited the spark within me, but i just wanna let you know, it just stopped there. nothing more.

now that i have gather my thoughts, i just wanna apologise for getting those thoughts in my head, because i know they will never ever come true. not that he wont choose me, it's because i have chosen you. and nothing will change that. sorry to make you feel insecure, i promise not to do it again.

Qin signed off @12:57 AM