was blog hopping cause i was really bored, and then i happened to chance upon eug's blog. read through her archives, and saw some of the things that made me sit down and think.

"For hours or almost the whole day of feeling happy each time, but just that 10minutes of unhappiness made the whole day feel like it was nothing.
That whatever overwhelming happiness got replaced by the memory of the 10 min or less of unhappiness.." quoted from eug. (sorry eug!)

how true.. i'm always in this situation. no matter how happy we were throughout the day, just cause you said smth that irritate me can ruin the whole day. it's acty funny that people always remember the unhappy stuff instead of the happy ones. lik parents always rmb how you flunk your tests but they never rmbed that you scored A in an exam. i hate it whenever this happens.. but how can i not get angry when you pissed me off? and then you get upset cause i get angry.. and the cycle goes on. and the night carries on with us getting mad at each other and no one making the effort to solve the problem. i really hope this will come to an end soon, i dont like it.

just feeling confused now, so many things going on in my head. reading eug's blog kinda affect my mood. LOL. so i asked na if it was right for us to get together. i guess he was shocked and angry ba..and asked if i wanna break up with him. maybe he was over sensitive, i didnt mean it that way. just wondering what will happen if we are just friends now. dont worry, im happy with you now.

i wonder if i can get over the past..

Qin signed off @1:13 PM