again.
it has happened again.
i hate this temper of mine, be it with him or anybody or in court. i dunno why i'm like that, is it because i'm out of control? or because my parents didnt teach me well? otherwise, what?
i cannot blame my parents i think, they have taught me well, it's whether i've learnt well or not, & apparently i didnt. & i think they loved me too much that's why they didnt force me to learn whatever i didnt want to but ought to. and now i'm in deep shit.

yesterday was the first time i stomped of a house, angrily of course, slamming doors & gates and whatnots. obviously not my house though, orells you think my parents will let me come home? lol. so i headed for the playground & sat there alone, i know you wont come. cried & thought things through. i guess youre right, i always let anger come into the way of this r/s.
i think i must have exhibit some behaviour that make you feel insecure or anything, i'm sry for that. youre the only one who will tell me off about my mistakes, my lousy character, so i guess i kinda learn some things?

the question you asked me yesterday, i hesitated. i dunno what answer to give you, because i really dont know what to answer. i never want to see you sad, but then again sometimes my temper got the better of me. but im glad that things turn out fine at the end of the day, yeap talking things through helps, & so i hope you will keep by it too.

you're my motivation.. my one and only.. dont go..

Qin signed off @2:25 PM