You know, I feel like my life's such a failure. Can't get anything I want, but what more can I ask for? What rights do I even have t ask for more?

Went trng on Wednesday, felt good & bad. Good because the feeling of badmtn is back, bad because.. I'm using badmtn t vent all my frustrations. Asked Naresh t keep letting me smash, it was then that I realised I had so many things t let go, so many obstacles t get rid of. But guess what? I cant even win by smashing, and ended up making mistakes & losing instead. I guess this really depicts my life - Trying v hard t get rid of so many things but in the end I get tired & lose out; & the obstacles remained standing & still blocking my way. That session's smashing, my arms really hurt after that, but I didnt give up, I continued smashing, but Naresh could still take all my smashes. Maybe this is just fate; I will never achieve what I want, no matter how hard I try.

I'm srsly tired, of all the rumours, and the emotions that I know I shouldnt have; but I wont give up. Love includes understanding, I know. I hate myself.

Anyw, Happy Birthday Shan :]Hope you liked the present & the book.

Qin signed off @12:28 PM